You Only Get One Shot. Make It Count!

The time is now.

What's up! I know it has been a while since I have posted a blog. But now with school starting very soon I thought I should give out some advice. This year I am going to be a junior. I am one step closer to graduating, and taking each day as they come! The first day of school can be nerve wracking and filled with nervous anticipation from students and teachers. So I am going to give you my two cents on how to go throughout high school and how to make the transition from child to young adult. This blog will be short and to the point. Enjoy!




I myself am still learning how to make the transition into a young adult, but I feel that I am getting there at a reasonable pace, a pace that is not too fast but not too slow. People experience change differently and sometimes it depends on their path in life and how certain they are about their next steps. But in order to be sure about your next steps it is always good to have a goal and use your gifts to make the most out of your life. Throughout my freshman year and sophomore year I have realized how important it is to learn some type of extracurricular activity. My parents always tell me that if I want to make it anywhere in life and if I want to succeed and live well. I have to learn something more. I have to put myself out there. How I go about my life and how to succeed is if  I try and learn everything, even if it is not a path I want to take I try to get other perspectives and insight on how different my life would be had I done this or that. I was blessed with many talents. God created me so that I could live out his wishes and honor him. He gave me the talent to play the piano at five years old and he told me to hold on to it because someday, I will touch someone's heart and as my love grew my mind expanded and I wanted it all. I wanted to continue to learn so that someday I could use my voice and mannerisms would move someone to venture out into the world expanding their knowledge beyond what they know. I've realized that in high school you wont survive the outside world without knowing something other than playing video games or watching tv. Some may say that we are young and we don't need to worry about those things. But it is best to fix it while you are at that stage so you don't crash and burn in the future. Now Im not hating, but if you don't take it to the next level, you are doomed.

I may be a little bit assertive sometimes when it comes to talking about the future, but it is only because I want to see my friends and family succeed. The one thing I really hate is when no one makes an effort to take a longer path to success. Sometimes we want what's easy so we stick to what we know and what we think is going to benefit us in the future. But you may end up suffering. 

I remember whenever my parents ask us about what we want to be when we grow up. I've always musician and my brother said artist. But the only thing that was missing was the filling, like what do we do if our outer crust fails, because we have nothing else left to fulfill our needs and wants. All we have is air. And as I grew spiritually and mentally, and started turning to God, I realized that he wants me to do more. I felt  a sudden change of heart and began praying and asking God for guidance. I found my true calling, and that was to help people. I wanted to be the one who would help guide people in the right direction, a direction that would push them further in life and be one step ahead of the game. But I still had one problem, and that problem was myself. I am often too worried about what other people plan to do with their life that I would sometimes forget I have my own and I would sit back and watch as my spirit slowly faded and I began to feel like a lifeless corpse walking around with no sense of direction.

I then fell into a depression and would often just sit in my room thinking about what I am doing with my life, and I would have no clue, not a single idea on how to roam. I often would say to myself" How could I try to help other people and try to guide them in the right direction, when I am just floating in mid air trying to find my home". Its always an odd thing. When in life you think you have it all planned out, until you figure out its nothing, until you work on yourself. You have to start with you first, before you can move on. sometimes you may have to reset, sometimes you may have to just ignore the outside world and those around you in order to feel content with yourself. Just like in high school. In order for you to pass the test you have to really focus on your studies and block out any distractions, (ex: electronics, friends, activities, etc.). You really have got to make sacrifices in order to walk the path of righteousness.

All of this ties into high school one way or another. Make it yours. Sometimes it takes you just standing outside on a nice day, just soaking up the fresh air and feeling the breeze, in order to understand how great life can be sometimes. * here comes the part where I sound like a cliché*
There will be times when you fall flat and you just stand around watching as everyone else is moving along to the sound of their heart while you are just stuck feeling life less. There will be times when you feel that you are stuck on replay. Sometimes, it takes those moments of confusion to build you into a stronger person. You just have to find it.

To sum up what I just said.... Do not stop and smell the roses. They will eat you up!

**Reading this blog now as a 22-year-old version of Camille, not much has changed but I have become more in tune to my way of life. At 22 years of age I recognize how important it is to take your time, and ofcourse it will not always be that way, because I have had moments where I felt so disgusted with myself because I felt like a failure or I couldn't figure out what to do with my talents after I auditioned and made it into Carnegie Hall and The Sydney Opera House four-times combined, but since then I hadn't utilized my instruments. I dropped out of band my sophomore year of high school because my band directors kept me on cymbals instead of clarinet and I moved on to choir and loved it so much that I became a double major in vocal music performance and psychology my freshman, sophomore, and junior years of college, but I dropped them because my music teachers were unfortunately too strict to the point that they were unprofessional and rude and I didn't like that association with being a music major. I can succeed without having a rude music teacher, that rhetoric of strictness needs to dissolve. 

But it is important to stop and smell the roses even if they try to eat you up because maybe you are just at the wrong rose bush. You do not need to rush into figuring out how to adult properly because there is no certain way an adult looks, you just need to make strides to better the version of yourself that existed yesterday. I believe I was 17/18 years of age writing this blog so it was interesting revisiting my old thoughts. For the past few years since then, I did feel my spirit and livlihood slip away and I felt empty. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and OCD, which are affects that I knew I have been dealing with since I was in high school, so around the time of writing this original blog post. I ignored it because of fear and confirmation. Now every waking day I want to ignore the outside world. 

The version of my perfect self is a work in progress, and maybe I wont find them, but I know that it will take time and I am in no rush. 



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